~I Afraid Of Darkness~

Hey Guys , This few days i'm being tired at home ... I couldn't really sleep very well ... & i just don't know why . I always wake up at 3pm to 6pm in between ... 12am sleep but 2am wake up again . After wake up at 2am .. I couldn't sleep at all . So i watch tvN .... Mmm... tvN got lot of K-pop Music ... I Just love watching tvN (824) & KBS World (115) Cool man . All about korean ^^ Mm... This Year SHINee came to singapore on 29 Jan ... Concert on 1 & 2 Feb ... If next year is on the same date ... I will be going to 1 Feb .. ^^ Because 2nd Feb is my bday . I'm with family !! cos is NEW YEAR ^^ hoho ... I don't know what i typing right now ... because i don't really know what i should post right now ... Sigh , I feel tired ... Because school is starting really SOON !!! Next tue .... 4 Jan Don't know what to do ... But i just hoping to stay at home .. I hope that our school can study korean or thai ^^ (think too much hor) Sigh don wanna post an

Yesterday Wake up in the morning & i called Avril ... Suddenly she tell me that she cannot go (Some personal reasons >< ) I was like so sad and don't know should i go or not . Then go back room and lie down and rest ... Half way thinking whether want to go or not ? Then rest until sister wake up we together listen to the recording that she drunk on 18 Nov 2010 (Bowen prom night Day) That night my sister was so scary ~ My sis friend bring her come back home . den i was like sleeping ... LOL i only sleep for 10pm-2am == (4 hour ) I still remember why i sleep so early .. Is all because i never sleep on 17 Nov ... den on the 18 Nov from morning go out until 9plus . but i did sleep at julieann house for 40 min ! My sis made me cannot sleep anymore then i wake up half way take care her and use laptop ! haha let continue about the BBQ yesterday ... Listen to the recording about 1hour den sis go shower . den change T-Shirt , pack bag and ready to go for east coast ... Walk to MRT

Just now i when to buy Mac for breakfast .. After buying that i went home happily ... But when i reached home . I found out that the people give me wrong order !! I was like angry . i wan hot cake you give me big breakfast ? (You're not awake ah ?) After eating ... Then i go watch show (The Gem Of Life) That show is nice ! >.< Feel sleepy right now ~ Maybe i shall sleep after this show finish :D Sleep Sleep Sleep Zzz ~ Now raining , this must be a good time to sleep ... So sad , i still watch :D

Today , suddenly Ming Feng (superman) chat with me in msn .. haha so sudden , is like long time no chat , msn , sms & meet . hehe i tell him a lot of thing that i kept to myself for a long time ! Talking to him feel mush more better now . I'm happy that i can forget everything because of his words... Not because of his my close friend or maybe i fall in love to him . haha both not ! Is better of some words that i believe lot of people will agree .... I shall let go the past . I shall keep staying happy . I shall smile in life & don't don silly thing . I shall not cry again . I SHALL NOT CRIED INFRONT OF THAT PEOPLE AGAIN .. MingFeng dam smart sia . He guess that idiot is a guys . LOL and he said a lot of things like blah blah blah ... ( smth like read me mind ) I read people mind a lot of time . But no one read my mind before . Only him . I can only read one people mind very carefully ! That's .... Rat ( that idiot ) Maybe i shall listen to Mingfeng .... 'Forge

Done By : The C.S.I science center ( one of the lady ) It look like real right ? This is all behind the C.S.I Show.. I'm sorry for playing this with those people who care for me ... I don't know that you guys think that this is real .. I know that's call care . I really regret for playing so long . But i didn't regret for putting those picture to facebook and let you guys misunderstand .. Mmm... Because of my bro friend saw that picture and he tell me bro . & my brother called my mum and find me . He worry for me .. Oh my this is the first time my brother show so much care to me . I really dam happy . Although i did lies to so many people . But i really hope you guys forgive me . I really feel the love of my friends , family & teacher . I'm sorry for making you guys so worry about me . . I'M SORRY this is the first time i play stuffs like that . But that idiot .... Sigh , never mind idiot change to Rat . Sound nicer , right ? Arr... I really don't u

I sdon't know what i am going to do now ... I forget to post about the Secondary two camp ... So sad don't know what i wanna to do kow . I can only try to recall about that camp ... Later gonna report at 3pm all the way until 8pm night .. Lol ... Hoping everything will go all right today ! Don't know why today feelings so down ... Maybe i shall stop thinking about all this stuffs . No matter what going to happen in the end .. Just trust your God in every moment of your life .. Live with your lovely smile everyday ... Will brings you Joy & of cos the children &baby can brings you joy everyday ! I gonna be busy today .. >< Hoping tomorrow i will wake up early for church ! So sad my sister & brother all have Iphone4 alrdy ... But i have to wait until 27th April 2011 ... Wait till the end ! hahas . Keep growing . Keep Smiling ! I want Iphone3 more than Iphone4 !!! (:

Red Shirt I Just don't understand why you guys are doing all this ? Yeah , you are right ... Red shirt never died ! But You guys kill 91 people .. Are you happy for all this ? Killing is fun ah ? Did you guys think for others ? I know that the PM are not good to the poor .. But no matter what will happen ... Can't you love your family ? You are Thailand !! ( The Land Of Smile ) That's why i love being in Bangkok ... Over there you guys are just like my Second family ... No matter what happen .. Can you guys sit down like a family & talk about it ? PM might be unfair in some way .. But not because of all this unfairness you guys kill people ... Some people have they are own 'Happy Family' & They are kind .. Just because all small stuffs you killed 91 people !! Do you guys think before you do .. You can said now Is all because of the PM ... ( being bad or whatever ) YOU GUYS ARE ALSO BEING BAD TO OTHERS ! ETC.... kill those people because of unfair , angry ?

I have beem so long never update my blog ... So people might forget about this blog about ... I was wondering why do people always think that i like him ... I did said before i like him ! But is as a friend ... I almost fall in love with him ! But end up i never ... So pls stop saying that i like him ! I just hate it when people kept saying that i like ! But i don't ! He is just a good friend of mine ( Last Time ) I wish he is still my Good Friend ... But he is not already ! He start being cold to me after Sec 2 Camp ... I know that i am in the wrong first .. But i have beem saying so many sorry to you ! Can't you just forgive me .. I love you as my friend forever ... I had never loved you before & I am hoping you will forgive me ! During friday i asked you fro chat ... & you agree .... I was like so happy & i feel like jumping up and down . LOL But of cos i don dare to jump :P Is just like a feeling to jump ! haha . End of year is coming soon . I am going to study

On the 17 August 210 , I vomit in the morning 05:38am ... Early in the morning wake up i was very happy that Tuesday i woke up so early ... But end up wake up so early is to vomit ... -.-ll Irritating sia ..... I remember 3 July 2010 i fall down and the doctor told me if vomit need to go back to hospital ... Lol . That was like one month ago doctor said wan ... so is like this vomit must be nothing want right ? haha . hope so .... This few day school happened a lot of things ... And i think is not fair to me at all .... I never come to school on Tuesday & Wednesday .... I never give letter or MC ..... Then , Mr lam give me detention ... whatever ... Tuesday really vomit leh . you guys don't trust me ... I don't said lies please ... Arg..... Irritating school . Cannot post much cause now very late and i wanna to go find dad right now . . sian now is going to be 5am ... soon .............. Going to off the laptop and go find dad . 7am come back i think . Then come back sleep

During those few days ..... I found out that i kept going out with my classmates . I don't know whether is good or bad . But I'm very happy that nowadays i am very close to my classmates . But that is not the happy that i am finding right now . How i hope i can trust someone with all my heart in school .......... Don't know why i just can't . Wondering for so many days . Finally , i know i lost the way with him ! ( Not Dy ) Haha . But no matter what has happened . Is all over ! ~ Start a new life with my smile that's all . haha

I'm always so sorry about what i posted on the blog ... -Sometimes i might have lot of spelling mistake . -Sometimes i might talk bad about others . But i'm sorry , If you're not happy you may tag on my cbox . Thank you -------------------.---------------------.------------------- I haven even say the main point yet .. Being a sport leader , yeah we have to show others the leader of us ! Some did show , some never even show the leader of them ! Is they're problem . But one thing that i don't really understand is ...... I did so many thing for her . Why did she scold me when someone else made her angry ! I only go watch awhile the NDP & played badminton with friend for 1hour . OVERALL ONE HOUR ONLY ... Why i come back you scold me for ? So many SL never report on time , never even come and do duty you never scold them ? i go play awhile you scold me for not doing any work ? Like the express sport leader did lot of thing like that . 1st , Me & Bern