~I Afraid Of Darkness~

Today ... you really upset me alot . I wanan to talk abt tht day things & i really feel sorry for tht day .. so today i wanna to talk to you face to face . but you didn't came to the bus stop today . cos you walk other way .. is my own fault for not telling u tht i waiting for you over there . but why you so sudden change way today . i tot you don like to take tht bus wan . i'm silly & stupid standing there and wait for you !! In the whole world i'm the most stupid girl who waited you over the 40 min like tht . i can't believe tht i am so stupid . and now you ignore me again -.- i really had nth else to say . i can only said " sorry . & i hate you . " tht's all . and i don think you're my good friend anymore D; i really wan to back to few days ago tht you chated wif me on msn . abt your past... Now then i know tht u hurt me alot though today !! O.o Today , i got SSP wif ms tan . hahas . over there i having alot of jokes sia ... actually

Yo Reader , Today , I suddenly found one blog that is very important to me last year . I read it and i feel like crying . Cause that blog have alot of past about me ..... I really wanna to back to the past . i rather don wan friend and i choose him . . i regrets but really no use . past is really a past . now is a new start . i shall forget all my past . . I can't forget the past . cause every past really mean alot to me . i wan to go back to past . i miss my past . i love my past . Past i got lot of thing . but now i gain alot alot of thing ~ Why my life so suddenly became like this . i really wanna all the thing back . I just miss my K2 life time . That year really mean alot to me . i wan her back ~~ Should i forget everything ? I don't think i can forget right now ~ Should i give up on the past guy ? I should !! Will i regret in the end ? Maybe O.o" Do i really need friend ? Don't Know Is God really that important to me ? YES . He is very important to everyone . Ca

Hey guys , Today i help amber to shower .. She was so good girl along the way i help her shower . hahas . cool ... she sick sia . sad cause . soon i having BBQ ^^ hahas . later den undate more . hehe . nowadays lazy to update blog lah . maybe gonna die liao this blog . . hais . i very bored leh >< hahas . i got lot of thing have to do and i still got homework haven't finish yet ;P with love, rebecca phua 8D

Hey guys , soon i going to my sec 2 camp . hahas . but today going to study in the morning then afternoon the camp start . . hahas . Everyone let Smile though this whole camp so you could make the people around you feels better too :) Sad that i cannot go church tomorrow . hais i wanna to go wan lor . but nvm go this camp . but i am sorry that i told me leader tht i going for this week . And i miss the children too . hais . i wan them D'; To : Someone Why did you hurt me so much ytd . Angry with me for nothing == To: ---- --- ---- How you really understand what i trying to say >< Maybe is really hurtful to say this to you . but u should know you have also hurt me when i saw tht facebook comments tht u have wrote . i cried cos of ur comments . i have really have nothing else to say . . As long that you really understand . den good lor . Thank for your understanding yesterday @.@ Got to go ... hahas . i still have to pack something D; Bye (:

Hey Reader , Yupp . I not going to sleep today .. Cause i don't feel any tired , but i know later during lesson will be dam tired for sure ;P hope i won't hehe ... I will still bring my smile to school although i not really very happy to go school nowadays == I just hoping that my days will be better today :] God , I really pray to you ... Everything will be all right today @.@ As i could live with a Smiling face today ... And make the ppl around me happy too (: Pls lord , i believe that you know what i trying to say today -.- With love , Rebecca Phua 11 March 2010 05:06am

Halo Guys , This coming friday i gonna have a camp in school .. hahas . I just hoping that i could be happy and smiling all the way until this camp over . And i hoping that GMSS got place for me to go in . So i wouldn't be in zhss . . It Really hurt me to stay in 2T1 .. Hahas as this year camp, we will be mixing with NA & Express people . hahas . So cool rite ... But i also hope tht i nt wif the ppl tht hurting me so badly . God , i really wanna pary that i won't be with her . pls lord . i really love you . Sat after camp i going to church but i only scare tht the camp ended at 9pm . i pary tht camp end in morning so i can go church and learn lot of things from you . Pary tht won't be rain too (: okayys ? hehe ily alot . Now i know how much i mean to you & the children :) today someone just told me tht she miss me .. How i hope to be wif them every week . i wanna to go back . i miss you , children , baby , adult , some churchmate too ! <3> Today

To : ---- --- ---- Is more hurtful to be with you !!! I really had enough for all your lies to me . you didn't even saw that picture right ? why must you lie to me in the first place , do you know that i started to trust you back .. but you now said lies . i hate it . when people said LIES ............ It's really hurtful when you wanna to turst back . Cause i trust you is really a mistake in the first place . I cried ytd & i don wan come to school today just because of one ppl . YOU REALLY HURT ME ALOT .... I really had enough for all the lies that you have given to me . And pls don bring your trouble to others trouble too ! I won't scold any bad words as i have really taken you as a friend before so i wont scold you anymore . i just wan you to go home and think about it . Now i know the full of hurt tht u have given me . You wan to help keith go ahead . your facebook comment have really tell me your true colours I really want to be friends with you cause as i talked t

Hey guys , since my last post was like dam long ago . haha . but i only know tht most of the ppl don reall understand tht i posting all the things her ... NEVER RE-READ WANT =P hahas . i wanna to sorry abt all this ... hahas . sorry Normally i will join Express on thursday for play basketball this week we not going to play cause tinghong & dingyuan got NCC camp tmr until thursday lols sia . friday sec 2 still got camp . hahas . they gonna be dam busy this week .. not going to sms them le (: Tinghong wanna to bring phone go Sec 2 camp aiyoyo .... i told him cannot but he don care . i think he wun bring de lah ... cause he is a Good Boy >< This few days happen alot of things tht upset me alot .. And i hope it wouldn't happen to me again ><> I use to loving you 24/7 but now i left you alone . i am really sorry for wat i had done i really hope tht u can forgive ... Don't have you my life was Sucks sia I lost alot of friends == I miss all the chil